I find that just beginning a project can be the hardest part of a novel. It’s those moments when I’m staring down at a new project and seeing the forest for all the trees that I suddenly find ‘other’ things to do to avoid it. Gee, I can write once the kitchen is clean or the bathrooms or everyone goes to sleep for the night.
I’ll find everything and anything to avoid those first few pages, sometimes even first few thousand words. It’s the set up of everything, the defining of the novel and themes, and I will avoid it if possible. I don’t know why it’s gotten this way other than maybe I put too much pressure on the beginning of a first draft. I know there will be a ton more drafts to really improve it and get it right, but it hasn’t changed the way I approach a new novel.
Signing up for Camp Nano I thought the rush of hitting that word count would alleviate those irrational fears, but as I sat down to work yesterday it did nothing to stop them. I managed to hit over 1700 words and they were some of the hardest words I’ve written in a long time.
I even knew what I was writing ahead of time so it wasn’t a lack of plotting that stopped me. It simply was beginning another project that I know will take me months before it is released. It was in that realization that I knew I was too focused on the bigger picture and not on one step at a time.
Now that I’ve mentally corrected that, I’d love to say that things have gotten better, but as I sit and write this blog post….dishes piled up on my cabinet need me, I could easily go eat food, and I need a new cup of coffee. The procrastination is still very much there. Sometimes, you need to put your head down and push yourself over these hurdles.
I have much more books to write and ideas I want to complete. I just need to get started. It is time to push myself to the next goal for the day.
Remember to L.O.L. (Live it, Own it, Love it) or it isn’t worth doing.