Talk about falling off the train fast. I had some things that happened in my private life that really through my world for a loop. While I was dealing with those things I shut down and was no longer writing. I can’t tell you how bad that went for me. By the time I had climbed out of the depression hole, I’m now so far behind it isn’t even funny.
I’d be lying if I didn’t say I could still get myself caught up, though. I remember there being one Nano I’d quit for almost half the month and the last two days of Nano came. I needed twenty-five thousand words and sure enough, I bust it out. For some reason, I work much better under pressure like that.
If I have all the time to reach my goal, then I turn into the hare from Aesop’s Fable. I do a bit and then go off to ‘nap’, only to find out that by the finish line…I’ve ‘napped’ my entire time away. It’s a terrible habit to be in and one that I really want to fix. So, that will be my goal, to be more like the tortoise than the hare.
I’m so far behind at this point it’s pathetic. It’s almost sixteen thousand from where I need to be. I find that there is a part of me that just wants to throw in the towel at this point. What is one more loss on the camp nano board, anyway?
Actually, it’s a bad thing for me. I often let, well July is my busiest month, be the roadblock to Camp. The whole point of this challenge was to get myself back into the habit of writing every day. So far that hasn’t happened, but there is still a lot of July left to get myself there. Even if my weekends are busy. I can do this. There is no doubt in my mind.
I just have to want to do it.
Now, time to get to work. Remember, L.O.L. (Live it, Own it, Love it) or it isn’t worth doing.