I’ve spent a lot of time stuck in my life. I can’t tell you the countless books I’ve read trying to research what exactly was going on with me. Nothing I read felt right. So for giggles, I thought I’d take some lame online quiz. I mean how right could something as thrown together as that be? I expected it to be so far off the marker that I could get a good laugh out of it and move on with my day. However, that being said I discovered more than I was ready to see.
The quiz came back saying I battle perfectionism. Me? I couldn’t see it. There was no way I had perfectionism. Never had I felt like that was something that I had problems with, yet something told me to read into it more.
Signs of perfectionism:
- fear of failure
- depressed by unmet goals
- critical eye
- all or nothing
- You think and act in extremes
- You have problems completing a project because you always feel there is something more you can do to make it better
The list goes on and on, but these are some that really rang out for me. At that moment, when I read these you could have pushed me over with a feather. That was perfectionism and I had it. I had it to the point of being able to click off on all those signs. Well, crap.
That explained so much that was going on in my life. It also explained why I have so many unfinished projects and why if I ‘decided’ to change projects I dropped everything to do so. This, by far is one of the craziest revelations in my life.
Needless to say, I’ve spent the better part of the day researching on how to help myself through it, so that I can accomplish things. I’ll be implementing some techniques to see if I can’t get a better handle on this so that I can live a fulfilling life. When I find methods that work I may write a new post to help others that are like me.
Until next time, remember to L.O.L. (Live it, Own it, Love it) or it isn’t worth doing.