Once again it has been awhile since I’ve written a blog post. I’ve had a list of blog posts that I’ve wanted to get written and ready to get geared up. Instead, a black cloud came over me. I tossed up my hands and thought, why bother. This isn’t an uncommon occurrence for anyone and especially not for someone living a creative lifestyle.
I have struggled with my writing career for a very long time. As I repeatedly say on these posts. It is something I constantly spend a great deal of time researching. Why when I had such a love for it, in the beginning, do I dread it now? If this is my life’s passion, why am I struggling? So many questions that all ascertained on the same thing, I wasn’t getting the work done. It was no longer fun for me.
The thing is, I still love to write. I spend a great deal of time writing with my younger sister and we absolutely love it. All day between the times we write back and forth over email my brain is running in the background wondering what happens next. I’m excited and I’m pumped for the next time that we are writing together. It’s one of my favorite parts of the day.
Even, my younger daughter and I, we will create these elaborate stories over the most random of things. Between the two of us, we keep it going until it’s this huge thing and it could start off as the silliest thing like the way the dog is acting while we are walking him.
This made those questions that much harder for me to comprehend. If I could sit down and create these things or randomly tell these stories then why is it when I sat down to work on my other writing did it become something I despised more than anything? It frustrated me to no end.
The fact is those other stories there was no pressure on them. They aren’t meant for anyone else, just entertaining for us. There was nothing there to do, but have fun, laugh, maybe cry and yet they are these vivid and rich worlds all the same.
So, I’ve come to the conclusion. I’m taking the pressure off my work. I love my writing. I love the worlds I create and the stories, but I’m going to change it. I’m going to be writing for me. To entertain me and by doing so, I believe it might entertain others as well, but if it doesn’t, that is okay because I enjoyed it.
It is that thing that you will hear from many blogs, motivational speakers, TED talks and the like. To find what you really want to do with your life, you have to find something that you would do even if there was no money involved. Now, I’m not saying create your whole life around that. By no means, go out and work a job that pays the bills, but make sure there is time for those things, those interests that you have that may not make any money. They may not provide for you financially, but they fill your soul.
That is what I’ve come to, I love my writing, but I no longer am going to put the pressure on it. I don’t need to stress myself out like that. I’ll get a regular job and write in my spare time so I can save up the money I want to travel, but because it’s something I’m passionate about and I love doing…I’m sure I’ll find time to sit down to write too.
Until next time. Remember to L.O.L. (Live it, Own it, Love it) or it isn’t worth doing.