Trial and Error

Happy Tuesday, Readers!

I have been working hard in the background to try to find a way to balance my writing, babysitting, and social media life. Not to mention my family on top of all that. 

I have to admit that it has been a real struggle. Like most of you I crash and burn a lot with things that I put into place, but I adjust and keep going. I keep trying. Like all things in life, it is a trial and error path. 

I’ve tried only blogging three times a week and using themed days like some of my friends. That crashed and burned hard. I would run out of content for some of those days. It was horrible.

So, I went back to blogging everyday which worked immensely well in the line of readership. I adopted a more positive lifestyle and I up kept everyone on here about what was going on. My family happiness increased, but my own happiness ended up bottoming out hard, sending me into a spiral of depression. 

The reason?

I wasn’t writing. I got my exercise in every day, and I got in time to spend with my family, but there was no personal time for me to do the things that I enjoy such as writing my books. Not to mention, I just wasn’t that determined with my writing. I was still hemming and hawing about what genre I wanted to write in and all of that.

Slowly, I took time away from blogging to focus on my writing. Not to mention my oldest daughter got a job and started college. I became the babysitter of her two children under the age of five. Now there really was no time for me to focus on anything that I wanted or needed to do for me.

My depression became out of control and I quit blogging, writing, and was ready to throw in the towel on it all. I talked with the hubby man about closing down my WordPress account and packing up shop. We even talked about selling my desk in the back office. I was done.

There was absolutely no way to balance it all and I was failing hard. Only, I couldn’t quit wanting to write. The feeling wouldn’t go away, so I finally sat myself down and really thought about my life. I took time away from my family unless I was babysitting and I focused on me. My thoughts circled around on what I really wanted to do with my life. Did I want to go get a nine to five job so I was earning money? Did I want just stick to being a housewife and wrap my life so much more around house cleaning and simply being there for my family? Didn’t matter the question the answer kept coming back to my writing. 

I’ve wanted to be an author since I was a little girl. I used to copy Bernstein Bear books and pretend I wrote them when I was in elementary school. I even competed in creative writing competitions whenever possible. While kids were out playing on the playground, I was inside doing vocabulary quizzes to learn as many words as possible. When school was over I’d write my stories. Sometimes with my nephew (who is only a few months younger than myself), we’d create horror stories. When left to my own devices I wrote clicky romances, choose your own adventures, and fantasy. 

How could I give all that up?

I simply couldn’t. So, the part I had to do was stick with it. No more excuses. I couldn’t do this half assed any longer. If I was going to be an author and really do this, I was going to give it my all.

Does that mean I have everything figured out?

Most definitely not. I’m still working on trying to find a balance between social media and writing. Especially as the first book to the Treaty of Dragons series is with Beta readers to make sure that it is smooth and then it’ll go with my editor before release later this year. 

While all of that is going on I have already begun the second novel in the series. I will admit I’m not hitting the 5k that I had been each day with the first book, but I am getting something written. Still, not where I want to be, but I will get there.

What is the price for such work?

My housework isn’t getting completed and it is falling behind. Sigh. So, now I need to find another schedule that works. I know there are working mom’s out there that are powerhouses that somehow manage to balance working a full time job, raising a family and all of that. I bow down to you powerful women.

I hope one day to be right there too. It’s just a matter of finding a schedule that works on all accounts and keeping it. I know through trial and error, I will get there. 

Until next time, remember to keep on pushing for your dreams and goals, to take time for yourself, and keeping trying things until you find a method that works for you.

3 thoughts on “Trial and Error

  1. I am right there with you. I had no clue how to balance my writing with my granddaughter here. I gave up. Maybe we both will. Figure it out together!

  2. I am right there with you. I had no clue how to balance my writing with my granddaughter here. I gave up. Maybe we both will. Figure it out together!

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