So, I had a sleep in today. The hubby man is working from home this week and so I knew that if I slept in my daughter would still get up for school and I wouldn’t be needed.
Worst decision ever!
Let me tell you what it cost me to have that lie in. It threw my entire schedule off. I woke up with a massive headache and any sort of motivation that I would have had was gone.
I had written up an entire to do list that wasn’t going to get done. There was nothing there to want to get my writing done. So, like always as soon as I didn’t feel like writing my brain kicks in.
There is no joy in my writing. Maybe this isn’t the right genre for me. Is writing really what I want to do with my life? If I struggle to write all the time, maybe I should reconsider what I do for a living.
If you’ve followed this blog for any amount of time, all of that will seem extremely familiar. I’ve written about it many times in the past. These are the inner monologue patterns that occur when I am procrastinating.
While here, they are easy to spot. Also, when I write them out on blog posts, however, when they are going on in my head. Not so easy. I become wrapped up in them and the second guessing continues on and on.
I have spent entirely too much time today letting this monologue circle around and around. I’ve sat here frustrated and wanting to scream. It took reading a different blog post that I happened to catch on Facebook that shook me free of this.
It was from Gail Carriger, another writer and one that I’m a huge fan of. Not only of her amazing style in clothes, but her books are incredible and an obsession of mine.
Anyway, I digress. She wrote a blog post about not only why she is a supporter of NaNoWriMo, but to answer a question that someone had sent her. I can’t remember the exact question. It had something to do with someone being unmotivated by so many wanting to be writers and publishing news….something along those lines.
That didn’t particularly interest me. It was the way she handled it all. That to be a professional writer, if you were serious about it, that you had to put your butt in the chair and work. That you couldn’t let excuses get in the way, basically.
She went on to say that NaNo teaches you important lessons like how to work when you just aren’t ‘feeling like it’. I’ll link the actual blog post here.
It provided that tough love that I needed to get me back on track. Now time to get my word count in and quit making excuses.
Until next time, remember to L.O.L. (Live it, Own it, Love it) or it isn’t worth doing.