I’ve been on my larger medication for 4 days now. I haven’t known too much difference feeling wise, other than they make me a little groggy for a bit after I take them. I am, however, getting a normal sleep pattern finally. That has helped me keep a more clear head throughout the day.
I have had a few instances where I’ve had anxiety attacks, but most of that is due to everything else going on in the background of my public life. That certainly has kept me on the edge of things. Thanks to the Xanax, though, they are manageable or pass rapidly.
So, I’m starting to feel much better. I’m working on finding a therapist to help with the other issues as well. While my writing came to a halt with everything else, I’m trying to get back on track. Thanks to the hubby man showing me an old blurb and notes on a novel that I’d been wanting to work on a few years ago, my brain has been running a mile a minute. I’m starting to put that novel together for November, while I continue to work on my current piece. Well, I want to continue working on my current piece.
This new novel in my brain is a psychological thriller, which always makes me excited. I’m not sure what it is about writing them, but I always enjoy them. So, I’m eager to get started there.
As some of you know, I’m reading Creative Calling by Chase Jarvis. The book is really eye opening. There are some points that simply don’t apply or hold no interest for me, but overall, the book has been a real benefit in a lot of aspects of my life. Once I’ve finished the original read through, I will go back through and do the little plans in some of the chapters so they can build off each other.
Anyway, there is one part that really hit home that I read yesterday. He was talking about how we think our way into these creative ruts. That we hit this hiccup in our creative pursuits and instead of pushing through it, we rely on our intelligence instead of action. We try to think and plan our way through these, which only digs us further into these ruts.
Okay, he says it far more eloquently and it makes a ton more sense in the book. Seriously, I recommend it.
It is like when you’re working along and something goes a little sideways on a project, your brain will come in with you’re not good enough. You have no talent. Maybe you should scrap this and do something else. So on and so forth. All of that will continue to dig you further further into the rut. When if you put your nose to the grindstone and keep pushing, you have a much better chance of figuring it out.
I’m a rut digger. It is one of my biggest downfalls. If I don’t want to do something, or if procrastination has won a day or two in a row…then I will start that digging until I abandon projects. This can continue on for many months before I can claw my way out of it.
The one method that has worked time and time again to get out of that? Action. Thinking my way out of situations of the creative pursuit has done absolutely no good for me. If I buckle down and get to work, I find myself out of the rut rather quickly. However, thinking my way into these holes and masking it as ‘working’ has become a very bad habit of mine.
So, it is going to take some time to fix that. However, it won’t get done unless I start now. Time for some action and less thinking.
Until next time, remember to L.O.L. (Live it, Own it, Love it) or it isn’t worth doing.