Happy Wednesday. I took yesterday off to celebrate my daughter’s birthday with her. Given the fact that we are still on ‘Stay Home, Stay Safe’ mode, like her graduation, we were unable to take her out to celebrate. That being said, the hubby man and I really went out of our way to make things special for her. We set up animal encounters like we were taking her to the Seaquest Aquarium close by, and we worked hard to just make it not a reminder of the things she lost, but rather what she gained.
As for the title for this blog post. I wasn’t sure what I’d write about today, but upon answering a comment on another one of my posts it came to me. So, thank you for that Cathy Brockman.
My entire life I’ve always been one that thrives when the pressure is on. It doesn’t allow me to get up in my head, or second guess myself until I remain in a state of indecision. To avoid such things, I often set my completion dates within a few weeks of starting. While a lot of people, think I demand too much of myself, I know that if I do not then I will spend the entire time I give myself writing.
By that I mean that I will horse around until I’m down to the wire anyway before getting it done. So, if I start myself at that point, then I can accomplish several things in the same time it would have taken me to do the one. It’s also why I’m great at speed cleaning moments before company comes over.
Shhh, we won’t talk about that one. Haha
I’ve really taken time lately to figure out who I am as a person. Especially given that in a month, there will be no more kids that I am raising in the house. Sure, my oldest will remain here and her boys, but they are for her to raise. Which is something I’m still learning to let her do. Poor girl, I’m a bit of a recovering control freak, so I have a hard time letting go.
Anyway, I digress. I know I am capable of writing eighty-five thousand words in a matter of two weeks. Sure it means that I’m locked away in my office for long periods of time, but as it sits currently I’m like that anyway. Only, unlike there being a two week cut off point, like the first one – I simply remain in the office humming and hahhing over what my next course of action is. Am I making the right decision? Etc…etc…
I’ve been working on growing more confident in myself and really taking control of my decisions. By doing that it has made me a much happier person to be around. That in turns has fed into better relationships with those around me. So, while I work on avoiding letting myself get too far into my head, I now have decisions in place and will be working on setting that plan in motions now.
Until next time, my lovely readers, remember to L.O.L. (Live it, Own it, Love it) or it isn’t worth doing.